Bronchitis!

Ethan's been sick, hence no blogging. I spent the whole of Saturday night hugging Ethan upright so he would sleep more comfortably. The poor baby can't breathe!!! It's so sad the way he cries when we have to syringe all the nasty medicine into him. Ethan was crying until he was hoarse. His nose was so stuck with phlegm, my poor baby was crying every hour and he couldn't even boob! He was unable to smell me cos he was crying eyes closed and rooting, my heart broke when he latched only to let go and cry in frustration cos he could breathe and so couldn't latch long enough to get any boob juice.

That said, the little tyke is much better during the day. yesterday, I put out 3 flash cards and explained that one was a cucumber, one was a cherry and the other a brinjal. Then I just jokingly asked him which one was the cucumber. He picked it out!!! Then I asked him which was the cherry and he picked out the right one again!!! I'm impressed. 2 consecutive hits not likely to be luck, but that reminds me that I need to find the energy to read to Ethan more. Have been quite lazy :-P

I'm saddest when my mum accuses me of being a bad mother, cos apparently I am supposed to not sleep AT ALL but after work, Feed my son and change him, check his temperature every hour, wash his syringes, clean the house, do the laundry, clean the floor, make the bed, pack Ethan's clothes, wash his toys, pay the bills, boil and change drinking water in the house AND find time to groom myself so that I don't look like a frog (my mum's exact description except in mandarin). And for good measure, since I'm the only one with a job, I need to make sure that I spend some time at night on my office work, which my mum concedes is necessary. and since we're renovating, that'll leave me enough time to type out emails to the renovation contractor while I'm bathing and brushing my teeth. Have made Ro promise that if I ever become like that to my children, to smack me real hard. But I can't help feeling sad, like I'm not doing the best for my little Ethan.

Ethan at his car seat July 18 

Ethan's first 2 unassisted steps

My mum said Ethan took 2 steps by himself yesterday!!! Am proud of my little baby. Been busy with trying to move house and had to deal with my maid running away. So haven't had time to blog or do anything else much. I no longer need to pump during the day and only get to have my boob time with Ethan at night, but little Ethan is still very apppreciative nonetheless - the sweet little thing! Ethan's been more manja, if that was possible. He now wants to be hugged when he's asleep and refuses resolutely to be alone AT ALL. He crawls to me now when he sees me. Not possible to describe the feeling - just feels like the heart is overflowing...